Can I Pacifier My Own Conscience?
By Mandi Smith
Ring, ring, ring. My mind is like a telethon without the phones, and the conversations that I have with myself are expensive. At least I think so…
Forget what therapist say about conversations with yourself. Crazy is not the word, though a diploma on the wall might signify diagnoses are true, are they really? I say if you are answering yourself than you are working out your problems and if imagination takes you there, so be it. Remember you are you own best friend.
Needless to say, I am stepping out of the box of the normal approach towards menatlity and stepping into a common theory that spreads wide from religion to children’s cartoons. The devil and the angel.
I like to call chatting it up with yourself “intertwined”, sounds better right?
The You, Me, and I.
Everyone has two consciences that live on their shoulders. Yes, what the cartoons taught us as young children is correct, but not everyone knows they are there. People grow up and forget all the fables told as children. Pumping the breaks on what you believe your purpose in the world is might save you some headache. Change the way you percieve your thoughts.
There is the famous red devil with a cane, and he is a real instigator. The precious angel on the other hand, produces kind ideas, and escapes as she glows in her white gown. One at each ear, usually whispering and trying to fight off the other, all at the cost of your mind. Just because you cannot see them does not mean they do not exist. If you believe in God, then you must believe in entities. The great mental war. It is like the Nam of brains, entinties in full effect.
Is the devil bad? Is the Angel good? Depends how you look at it. It all comes down to positivity, negativity, and discipline within your own thought process, but knowing the difference can make all the difference. There is a shift in the level of evil that is in this world and knowing the difference will save you energy.
Your own conscience is yours and yours only, but there is not your mind, and they feed off your wants, your needs, your insecurities, and even your imagination. Like worms to a hard drive. This goes both ways and can cause you to have issues with focusing, conjuring up realities, and conversing with them, hence “Talking to yourself.” Have you ever blamed someone for something that was never their fault? That is just an example. See what people tend to forget is that we are not all we believe ourselves to be, and we are never alone in this world. We are far more powerful that we know, and it all stems in the mind.
Think of an intertwined mind (You and your consciences.) as a thousand necklaces tangled together in a box, and the only way to conquer an issue is to solve the way it tangled together. You are going to get frustrated. You are going to get angry. You might even want to hit someone, depending on your level of irritability. (But say no to violence.) Even when Red, digs in deep because he loves violence. Once you untangle it you can lay it out nicely, relieved.
Tangles are as easy as you would expect though and an insecurity is a definite tangle, but your mind does not need to be. Wake Up.
Let’s call the conscience devil Red. Red ooo ooo ooo that little guy loves to play with fire, and spit grease on it too. He will even give you the matches with a pleasant smile, “Burn it!”
Let’s call the conscience angel Glow, Glow says, “What if your burn the house down? Then where will you live.”
You make the decisions based off their suggestions not your own ideas.
Red he brings self-doubt, self-pity, but plenty of self-awareness, which can be a good thing depending how you like to flip Red by the horns. He uses negativity to embellish your insecurities and he even creates insecurities that do not exist, but once he brings anything to light in your mind it comes to light and flourishes. That is the problem. If Red can redirect your thought process, he could also change the way you view anything. Remember that. The good thing about Red’s, negativity is there is a polar opposite called positivity, with Glow.
Glow she only wants what is in your best interest and she never rests, unlike Red. That is his weakness. He likes to sleep. He takes your energy, and he drains you until you are so tired you give up. Glow, she gives you great advice to keep you going, and takes you to a healthy state of mind when Red is on a vengeance tantrum. She motivates, and never stops trying to help you to see you are better than what Red wants you to believe.
Confidence is the highest form of Glow’s work. When you have transformed a negative insecurity to confidence and light; life tends to breeze with ease. Whether you completed a task, changed something about yourself, or just plain out do not care what Red says anymore you will feel the weight lift away from your soul, and you can start to feel free. What a relief that is to not hear his mouth blabbing away. Now this is discipline, and discipline of the mind is what is needed to move forward in life.
What about our subconscious? The stuff we ourselves do not know we interpret but we do, like heavy subliminal messages that direct the way we eat, sleep, and live our life. Red he has the power to see your sub conscience and glow she does not. She must battle his war on your brain as they pop up and roll through like comments on a live feed. That means Glow needs to always be on her feet, quick witted, and an excellent chess player, if you will. Changing negativity to positivity is not easy, but anything is attainable.
The issues range and so do the levels of resistance.
-Impulse thoughts.
-Insecurities
-Sub conscience thoughts
-New insecurities
-Vengeance
-Tit for tat
-Other’s thoughts
The list goes on and they range through life with relationships, buying vehicles, choosing a career, watching television, and making lifestyle choices. Just picking up the pen to construct this blog post was a battle.
Example: Your boyfriend cheats on you and you get angry. (Anger is discipline slapping you in the face because you do not have it.) A thought suddenly pops into your head that says, “Cut all his clothes and bleach his shoes.” Now you think this is your idea because you are mad, right? Wrong. This is little old Red, whispering sweet antagonism into your ear. In the second that he embeds this thought like it is your own, Glow steps to the plate, or your shoulder blade and says, “Maybe you should just bag up his things. There is no need to be so extreme.” You grab a trash bag, and stomp to your closet that you gave him half of, tear down his belongings, and ponder, still debating your thoughts as you believe them to be. They whisper ideas AKA your thoughts in your ears. “Screw this guy!” You shout on your knees upset, with a pair of scissors in your hand. Red is cheering you on, “Yea screw that guy. Cut his stuff up.” Glow says, “You don’t need to fold them just throw them in the bag.”
Example: You wake up put on an outfit that Glow said, “Wear this you will look so cute.” And shows you a picture of yourself in it. You believe you had the idea in the first place, so you go put on the outfit and you love it. You wear it as you have your coffee, and when you go to the rest room you look at yourself in the mirror. Red tells you. “Um no. You look ridiculous. You look fat. You look ugly. Go change.” And you believe that was your own thought, so you do, but it was not.
The devil loves to drag you down for his own selfish reasons.
How hard is it to move a negative thought from Red’s, fire box to the positive box that Glow keeps by her side? She is like a mother who saves the achievements of her child and wants you to achieve the highest level in life that you possibly can.
The brain has three sides, with you in the middle. Red to the right and Glow on the left. The main goal of mind war is to get as many thoughts as possible from Red, over to Glow. Ready! Set! Go!
You are standing on a soccer field called life with your thoughts as the black and white soccer ball being kicked around. You are the all-star player. The other team is Red, even your own team is Red. The crowd is cheering, and Glow is in the audience, but you cannot speak with her you can only remember the pep talk she gave you before the game started, time will not slow. What do you do?
Tick tock. Tick tock.
No one can win the first time. You would have to play several times even a hundred times until you learned the strategies of each player, and where they would stand at a certain time. You would then and only then be able to maneuver through the field without an issue.
Have you ever just snapped and screamed, that’s, Red. He did that. He laughs, and smirks at you too while you cry through your problems that he created.
He will pull something from your brain and twist and say, “Here now have that on you consceince.”
It is much easier to lose your mind and go crazy than to work through every ball that is thrown your way with Red’s extreme fast pitch, but you can defeat him. Go for it throw out those old sweats and be your sexy smart self he cannot stand to let you be.
As you brush more dust off your shoulders, and move thoughts to the positivity box, Red will eventually have nothing left to use to warp your mind, then you can be free in life. That is what Red does not understand about his capabilities, and Glow, she thrives on the fact that Red is truly a teacher. He shows you the light only if you want to obtain it. Glow feeds on that small amount of light that can be found in every negativity, and you should too. Find your light!
It is not crazy to babble back, and forth with your conscience. It is perfectly sane, whether you use your inside voices or your outside ones. What truly is the difference? Caring what people think. I would say, and just another insecurity to carry around or one to be nipped in the butt by discipline through way of battle. The intertwined moments of our minds that move us through every step that is truly an art. God gave us the power to defeat such issues by blessing us with Glow. Though life as we know it is completely mental, and most of us do not realize it as we waltz through making our choices siding with Red or Glow. If we changed our perspectives on our lives like morphing a square into a three-dimensional object, we would have plenty of room to maneuver.
Stick that in your mouth Red, I am working on sliding with my angel Glow and shopping for pacifiers.
